duminică, 9 septembrie 2007

In search of perfection.Part 1

What does perfection mean? Is it a trend, is it a religion or is it a void? Is perfection a new way of living, a new way of thinking or is it a lie and everyone is trying to be perfect without knowing what does it mean? Hmm...tough question. Let's try a "perfect" answer.

Perfection is a good, is a habit, is a possibility, is a lie, is an answer...perfection, from a certain point of view, is everything and yet nothing. I was talking to a new friend and she said "I want to be myself, without making compromises, etc." We weren't talking bt being perfect, we were talking about people's trend to be someone or something that they are not and...well, I was telling her that I wanted to be like a F1 pilot, I mean, to have his life. And she was like "What?"

It's quite easy to understand why one is willing and sometimes desperate to be different; society kinda sucks so...why not search for alternate realities. It's happening and well, it is not good. I, sometimes enter some games, RPGs for example, and become someone I am not, but I do not do it so often...the explanation - I recently rediscovered something to live for: painting.

It's a good way to start your day, with a nice, big canvas, some knives hehe (I don't know what to call them in English, but I bet u saw them at a point in some art shop) and some nice acrylics, 3D to be exact. In those moments, when I am alone and I only hear the street noises, the birds, etc, I am perfect because I connect to the Universe. In other moments, I am myself, growling and cursing my job:d and yes, meeting w my friends online or offline.

So, here is one idea of perfection. How about others? Are there perfect people? Is one more perfect than the other? Are we all perfect? Lemme see...we are told that the only perfect being is God. And I am not gonna disagree on that. I mean look, he knows all about us, he helps us when we ask for stuff and he sends us people to help us when we are in big trouble.

Some of us, impressed by this, try to be like Him and enter monasteries or meditation groups or libraries and study about it etc. Others well, they start buying books and reading what others have written about this phenomenon and even try to imitate what those people felt or even did. And that's a problem: if u imitate others than you kinda loose your chance of being closer to His perfection; at least, this is my thought.

Perfection cannot be obtained by searching while your heart is impure, full of stupid desires like these: "Oh, I wanna be God! God will give me everything if I do this! God will love me more if I pray a lot! God, God, God!"
Well...some of those people either receive gifts from Him and others risk losing their minds and even becoming aggressive. I am not gonna get a gun and shoot those fools but I am gonna
pray so I will not become like them. There is a very thin red line between true faith and madness. Some cross it without knowing, others deliberately. It's their choice, their need to be perfect. Let's just be aware!

From my point of view, perfection is like this: a person, with a good mind, not filled with the weeds and idioteces that populate our life and our environment, a good heart, without selfishness, aggressiveness, hate, envy, etc, with good and sound expectations and who is thriving to be himself or herself in every possible way.
If I dare to look at myself now, I am not very much like that person. I mean yes, I have a good heart but the others are not at 100%. But I am trying to bring them there. I haven't said anything about a great body or hair or eyes or clothes. It is quite irrelevant to say about those because if your mind is ok then everything else close to you - the "items" mentioned before- is very much ok.

So, if any of u, of us, is willing to become perfect, I have only one advice - search for something specific to you and go on that path as much as possible. I was told we make mistakes by allowing our lack of trust in our potential to kneel us, to make us useless machines. It's true, unfortunately. And some of us cannot be longer saved. But the rest, our future children, even ourselves can try and must prevail.

That's why I am ending this article with the wish for us to be perfect and stay perfect forever!! God is next to us, loving, helping and pushing us forward. Let's go with this flow and become ourselves!!